Friday, May 18, 2018

Empty bowls and beds

It's hard to believe it's been a whole week since I said goodbye to the best dog ever. When Jessie passed away, I put away her crate and bed and bowls in the garage the same day. I just didn't want to see them. But with Casey, I just can't bear to put them up. So I walk by Casey's bowls in the kitchen every day. There's still a few bits of kibble in the bowl, but I don't want to take the step of throwing them out and washing the bowl. Every night, I go into the bedroom with an empty crate in the corner. I have Casey's collar hooked on the headboard so he's still sleeping next to me like always.

I know one day in the not too distant future, I'll have another dog(s) in the house. The dog beds will be full of snoring, the bowls will be filled and emptied regularly, and the toys will be played with instead of laying forlornly in the same spots for a week. But for now, I just miss my baby.


16 comments:

  1. so sorry and my heart aches for you aching heart. we all know that one day soon you will be a foster parent, because you are YOU

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  2. I so understand. Bailey is still with us but I know her time is short. I dread the day that her bowl isn't stacked with the others and her stuffed babies are left by themselves in her crate. My heart is breaking.

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  3. We understand.
    What a good idea to have Casey's collar near you at night.xx
    Avalon has helped heal our aching hearts. We still miss Isadora, Mitalee and Esme (and all our sweet angels) so much but it's nice to know we are making a difference in Avalon's life and she brightens our days and hearts.
    We know someone is waiting to find you too.

    Sending you lots of love,

    Sophie and the critters in the cottage xo

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  4. Hari OM
    Well, of course you do. We will miss your Casey and Jessie too, but nowhere nearly as much as yourself. Our hope is that the truly painful part will lift soon enough and that there is indeed space for some more characters to enter your life... and ours via this blog. Till then, know that Blogville is holding your heart within itself, that it might ease. YAM xx

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  5. my tears are running... and I feel so sorry... it is such a darned hard time... but I'm sure once someon will come to heal your broken heart...

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  6. Oh I am so very sorry - loss of one furkid is bad enough but you have had to go through that twice in such a brief period of time - so devastating.

    I can only imagine what dear Casey would be saying to you because of how he was with the fosters and because he knew so well your love for him, Jessie, Cinderella and the fosters - "Yes momma, you do need time to mourn me and Jessie leaving for the Rainbow Bridge butt me and Jessie know how big your heart is. We know there will be more fosters soon."

    And I too love that idea of hooking his collar to your headboard - I would think that would be so peaceful.
    Mom Kim

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  7. It was a month before I could put Greta's crate away. All our angel's special boxes are on the shelves above our bed. Take the time you need to grieve, we are sure that Casey will be looking out for just the right dog for you when the time is right
    love
    Mom Linda
    Hazel & Mabel too

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  8. It is so hard, isn't it? Mom still gets teary-eyed with little things that remind her of our Angels, especially Ciara. Time helps a lot, but we are sending you lots of hugs to comfort your pain.

    Hugs and Woos - Lightning, Misty, and Timber

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  9. I understand. This is the toughest time, and I know how your heart aches. Sending you hugs and lots of love.

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  10. I also understand, and send love to help fill the gap in your heart...

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  11. Sending big hugs. It are so tuff.

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  12. We totally relate to how this goes. Losing our Lily Belle 5+ months ago, we too couldn't put her stuff away. It took time. It took tears. Those tears we still cry today. We send hugs and love.

    Hugs,
    Muffin

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  13. Houses become to quiet when the ones we love are gone. Hugs deb

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  14. Our hearts are breaking for you. We know just how hard this is. Hugs♥

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